I’ve been feeling a little non filtery lately….
A tad too unfiltery lately.
I increasing don’t give a shit, if you haven’t noticed.
Each and everyday
I feel myself smiling more….on the INSIDE.
I feel a warmth inside of me.
It feels good to be bitter and kind of not give a shit.
It almost feels like when your drinking wine (tequila, rum, whatever you alcohol of choice maybe) and hit that “I should stop drinking now, if I want to stay content” tipsy feeling.
I’m currently going through another phase
Which I’ve just noticed I haven’t really touched up on yet.
Things piss me off.
A lot of shit pisses me off.
Its honestly probably super easy to piss me off.
But lately, it just seems so freaking hilarious.
I’ve been super amused by people’s stupidity
and what the fuck actions!
Getting me annoyed plus no filter equals my entertainment.
I’m slowly becoming cold as ice
but it seems like such a huge weight off of my shoulders.
I must continue with my non emotionless ways.
I can’t go anywhere but up if i’m at the bottom, right?
I enjoy not giving a shit.
And i’m learning to enjoy not giving a shit
But i don’t at the same time.
It goes hand and hand with my anxiety.
Is it weird that I worry about everything but don’t worry about things that are in my control?
Now my next step is to get rid of my conscientiousness
that’s not a good thing though.
I’m a mean person.
I’ve always been a mean person.
I’m getting torn into two different people.
My mother and my father!
I’ve been my mother for so long
and i can feel my fathers personality just yearning to come out!
I’m literally like 6 different people actually.
NOT 1….NOT 2….NOT 3…BUT 6.
I don’t even know what the freak the rest of my personalities are, but they’re there.
I personally know they’re there.
There developing…slowly, waiting to come out and reek havoc!
I want to cause chaos, confusion and delay.
I’m trying to delay the inevitable.
The test is how long can I hold out?