I often wonder how insane I actually am
I will never have peace!
I will never have clarity!
I’m completely crazy!
But not entirely insane.
I will never feel comfortable with who i am….emphasis on the “I”
I’m constantly judging myself…
I honestly don’t give a fuck!!
So why do I give a fuck!
Emphasis on the “GIVE A FUCK”!!
Like can someone who equally doesn’t give a fuck tell me how they resist actually giving a fuck!?
I’m super conflicted for no reason.
I know what I want.
Now how do I get it?
Raise your hand if you ever think i’m going to find out the answer hahaha
Ignore me, i’m insane…crazy and often don’t give a fuuuck ;D
Excuse my language, i’m clearly in one of those moods!
I don’t know who i am right now.
It’s 10:30pm and it’s okay for me to let loose
aka rant my whole life away.
But what am I actually ranting about
I never make any sense…do I?
Honestly is this blog even cohesive?
I feel like i’m constantly all over the place…
You all probably feel the same way as i do right now
(inside evil laughter)
You all think i’m crazy!
I hate questioning everything i write
and everything I post
and obviously everything I think.
The only thing that makes me feel content
Is I know i’m not the only one who has these thoughts….
Is it fucked up that that’s what wakes me up in the morning?
Other people’s despair?
Don’t take it the wrong way
But knowing someone has it worst then me
Which i’m sure people do……..
14 million times worst then me….
Makes me feel better.
I’m a tad bit selfish
I’m not entirely selfish
I just have too big of a heart
That I wonder why I have it harder then people who don’t try.
There’s literally people who have everything handed to them
But lets not back track to the fact that my mother isn’t alive
and how a piece of shit can be….
makes me wonder
What’s life’s plan…
Which brings me back to my paranoia.
(Throws up mentally)