If you guys ever feel like I’m being repetitive
Please tell me to stop
I bet your bored hearing about my mom
My abusive relationship
And being a military wife
I feel like that’s all I’ve been writing about lately
I need to start writing about the positives again
In this groggy state
My life is perrrrrrrrfect
I wouldn’t want it any other way
I have the perfect kids
But the past is what haunts me
I have to let it go
I have to let it go like 4 years ago
I can’t let life bring me down
Ruin my life
Its funny how nightmares can leave such an impression
but dreams only last so long
I think that’s what my problem is
I feel like my whole life is one big Nightmare/dream
98% of the time everything goes good [the dream]
But then that horrible horrible shitty 2% [the nightmare]
Sticks to me like a Payne in my ass!
[haha you see what i did there ;D]
When i have nightmares
they go that extra mile
and scar me for fucking life!
I’m tired of saying i have to better myself!
Theres only so far i can go.
I’m a good person
and that’s good enough for me.
Karma just hits me for some reason.
I crack a small fucking joke
and i grow a fucking stretch mark !!