I’m having some anxiety right now
I’m thinking back to when i was being positive
when i told you guys i was healthy
when you guys realized i wasn’t who you thought i was
and now I’m like
“where did that go?”
where did that positivity come from?
i feel bad for lying, giving advice
saying things are good
“If i can get through it
so can you!”
but in reality
I’m not through it
I’m just starting
I’m not even close to being done
and that’s what scares me
i hope nobody i know
[or just people in general]
don’t have to feel what i feel everyday
i hate struggling
its getting hard, almost not worth it
but i know its very worth it
and that’s why I’m here today
you know awareness
i wish i was more inspiring
i wish i wasn’t socially awkward
and could put myself out there
i wish i was a better person
and could better the world
I want to just live
Not care about things going on around me.
Little stresses feel like huge obstacles to me!
I know there small.
But my brain doesn’t comprehend it.
I want my brain to realize
i cant always make mountains out of mole hills.
Because that’s all they are.
Things i should be able to sweep under the rug.
Some people have it worst then me.
what happened in the past
My mothers death
Its over with.
I cant go back.
I need to get over it!
Live my life.
And make my family happy.
I think alcohol should be boycotted ;D
Anyways just sit here and enjoy my
beautiful children :]