Its weird how I could just live without her.
My hearts sinks every time
My brain reminds it, I have lost my mother.
I feel kinda trapped.
I have good days
But mostly bad
I wake up believing she’s alive
And fall asleep realizing she’s dead
There’s no happy place for me
It used to be in her arms
Warm and snug
Now I have no comfort
I wanna talk to her
Confide in her
I wanna ask her how to deal with death
She was my first real loss
Ill never be able to look at death in any other way
I had nothing to build up to, nor prepare me
I feel lost
Yess I keep repeating BITTER
But that’s what I am
Its the only way I can describe my heart
I wanna hide from the world everybody EVERYONE!
I deserve peace
I’m tired of reliving tragedies
Over in my mind
I want to cry right now
But I’m not
I know I’m stronger then that
Even though I’m not at peace
I wanna fool the rest of the world that I am
Oh, please tell me i fooled ya!