Let me Enlighten you, While you Enlighten me!

Let me enlighten you!

I’m really going to try and explain this in semi detail for you guys.

Ill use a lot of comparisons, metaphors, what not!

Ok so, do you know that “You cant get mad at me, I’m not touching you”

game you probably played as a kid?

Well I’m that kid who “supposedly” wasn’t getting touched!

My anxiety, is like that kid breathing down your neck, or hoovering over your shoulder

while your trying to concentrate.

Its like that little kid following you

you can feel his every move

His body heat, dragging behind you!

Jittery.

Paranoid.

Scared.

Nervous.

Sweaty.

Hot.

Itchy.

My depression is like that fly, that wont go away!

You don’t see it for awhile but then it comes back.

You think you killed it but you didn’t.

It appears no matter where you go!

Its like Christmas.

Your so happy to open presents

just to find out, you didn’t get what you wanted.

Disappointment.

Sadness.

Happiness.

Anger.

Hopeless.

Faithless.

Thoughtless.

Ugly.

My thoughts feel as if I’m doing a workout.

I’m tired, i want to stop..but i don’t.

I’m striving for something

so i push harder.

Racing.

Heart pounding.

Lost.

Blank.

Everywhere.

Puzzling.

My mood is like a chameleon.

Its constantly changing with the environment.

Refer back to Depression!

My OCD

makes me anxious, its trigger when my anxiety is.

Its that itch you cant scratch.

Nothing feels right

I have to touch you!

You have to touch me!

I have to touch it

PERFECTLY!

Open, close, open, close

My hands!

They don’t feel right

Open, close, open, close

Till they feel perfect

I really cant explain it, any better

It just happens, and i cant control it!

I CANT CONTROL ANY OF IT!

It feels like I’ve lost myself.

I am losing myself.

I lack personality.

I don’t know who i am anymore.

and its scares me.

Now enlighten me, tell me I’m normal!

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2 thoughts on “Let me Enlighten you, While you Enlighten me!

  1. I liked this writing, I can identify with a lot of it. I hope things get better. Good luck x

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