I can’t wait to feel that comfortable feeling.
Knowing my husband is home
Knowing he can make me a bubble bath
Give me a back massage
Make me feel relaxed And at peace
I look forward to Forgetting
Nothings wrong with me.
Nothings wrong with anything
Nothings wrong with us
It could be just me
But I wish I could go back in time
And take back some things
One thing in particular I should’ve never done
And I’ve always told myself id never blog about it
But clearly I am right now!
I won’t say exactly what it is
[I didn’t kill anybody if that’s what your thinking]
It makes me feel like a horrible person
I broke someones heart
Its honestly the only wrong doing I’ve ever done
And I wish I could go back And erase it all
This situation is part of problem
And I can’t even blog about it
I wanna blog about it
I know it won’t make it all go away
But when I write I feel liberated
Its that sigh of relief
Getting anything and everything off my chest
I know I have to say my feelings to recover
But its much easier said over a computer
Then in person I can’t do face to face
Its crazy I’ve grown up Learning to lie, manipulate, cheat, and steal
And the only thing I managed to hold on to
Was to never show fear Or emotion
Never trust Or let your guard down
I wish I showed fear more often
I wish I didn’t lack emotion
I wish I could cry in front of others
I wish I could let my guard down
You wonder why, I never mentioned trust?
Because why should I be trusted?
Like I said I grew up learning how to Lie, cheat, steal, and manipulate
Think about it!
Actually don’t think about it, let’s talk about it!