Do you know what my biggest fear is?
You wanna know?
Go head guess!
I bet you don’t know!
Well here’s a hint
Your reading it…right now!
I don’t like people knowing what’s going on in my head.
It makes me feel weak.
Because all you’ve been doing for almost the last year
Was reading my thoughts.
My wants, my needs, my must haves.
My wishes, my not so wishes.
And guess what else?!
I’m about to face my fear head on!
I will be seeing a psychologist tomorrow.
Not by choice.
I’m doing it for my loved ones.
Personally I’m not ready.
Physically or emotionally.
I’m shaking just thinking about it.
I don’t wanna go and I shouldn’t have to go!
But I have to go.
I have get over my underlying issues.
It’s been over 6 years
And a hell of a lot of secret crying.
How much longer can i go?
If I don’t go now, I believe I never will!
I have to get better.
I must get better.
For my kids
For my husband
For my family
For my friends
For my mother!
Wish me luck!
And pray, that I will be able to get out the car, and finally face my fear!