Feels like I’ve been sad my whole life. This is never going to change I’m going nowhere And I’m at such a dead end with no beginning trail I have officially circled back. I’ve worked so hard to create the foundation that I now have But I can’t find the path to my happy place I’m so lost right now. And almost don’t want to be found What’s the point? Well meet right back up where we started. Back where I hate being Back where I said I never wanted to go But here we are At nothingness It’s exactly who I am and where I belong It’s what I deserve I am no good. I can’t be saved I’m seeing the pattern I guess this is it This is the reality I’ve been trying so hard to drown The alcohol helped I’m yearning for that feeling of blankness That surge of warmth The regret of drinking Then drinking to unregret it Because I’ll never remember. I miss not remembering. But now I’m in a trance I cant make new memories Only old ones Im losing my mind I’m losing myself I’m just lost Don’t come find me